Wow, where to start on this entry?!
The past few weeks have been pretty tough on me as i'm finding the last few months of university quite difficult to deal with. It's hard to explain but i feel like a bird that wants to fly the nest but is trapped in it. I have 6 weeks left to go which isn't a long time and i'm basically going to get my head down and just work work work, which isn't a good prospect for me as i'm involved in alot of stuff and i'm already beginning to do what i set out to start when i came to uni 4 years ago. It's not been about getting the actual qualification, it's about the people i've met and the experiences i've had.
This week i've had one of the greatest musical experiences to date, it was just absolutely wonderful and magical and all other positive adjectives that i can think of. The percussion and dance group i'm in (Juba do Leao!) took to the stage at the RNCM after months of preparation. It's looked beautiful and sounded brilliant and the feeling was absolutely mind blowing. All day yesterday after the gig i was still feeling this thing whatever it was, it was like a new emotion that has no name. That may sound over the top but it really did effect me alot, just felt emotional and kept welling up and i don't think i'll ever be the same again. I want to be a sponge and keep learning as i have so much much to absorb and give, i haven't been doing music for a very long time and after this short time i'm feeling like this about it, who knows what the future will hold!
I've said it before and i'll say i again, in Juba there are some of the most down to Earth, funny, talented and just in general ( excuse the French) fucking real genuine people i've ever met, haven't got enough words to express how fond of them all i am.
But yes, now is the time when i need to get my head down and try to get all of this work done, the sooner it gets done the sooner i can get on with my life. Who knows what's around the corner and that's the most exciting thing, nobody knows and musically, i'm glad i've turned around those corners and discovered alot of different music. Music shouldn't be about commercialism, glamour, fame and the ' mainstream' until you understand that music should be about living and really appreciating what a powerful force it is. Human beings have been doing it for thousands of years and if you don't understand or appreciate how or why i suggest to pick up a drum or any instrument and open yourself up to a world of unpredictable wonder.
